my body hates me

[kingmike1224]

Between sleeping like 20-24 hours in a 2 day span...the gigantic headache im suffering from now, the strep throat...i am beginning to think my body does hate me..though my blood test came back fine....and yay...classes suck

I havent talked to my mom since last week when she started in on me for thinking about dropping a class...she started yelling and i told her she could take the trip to Arizona and shove it and hung up on her.

Brie has been offline since sunday, visiting mom in San Francisco...and ive been texting her like an insane mad man...she sooo rules..and i dont think i could do a day without talkin to her.

So enough with my boring life..and so i figured why not post my dreams and realities cuz i am a glutton for punishment

Dreams:

- having a family that actually is normal and supportive
- being with someone i love cuddling somewhere
- graduating and getting away from Albany

reality:
- my family is far from normal and has been emotionally abusing me since as far as i could remember
- i am probably destined to be alone, and see myself as a life joke...nothing in your life can be worse than mine
- will probably be in school a while longer and i hate Chinese history and my 10 page research paper


And that will be it


Ooo PS GIP *SQUEEE*

Comments

[mattymattymatty.livejournal.com]

You make your own destiny.

[music07.livejournal.com]

No one's family is normal, so don't worry about them. I'm sure they care about you underneath all their stupid actions. You know about my dad and how we don't get along and how he seems to hate me, but I still know he loves me somewhere underneath it all. Driving you up a wall is what families are ment for. lol

As for being alone, you so aren't destined to be alone. That's a choice you make. There is someone for everyone. Your someone just may not be there at school with you. But you will find someone. A good way to start though is to think positively about yourself and portray a confident attitude. That's what attracts people most. But trust me you'll find someone soon enough.

*hugs* Hope the headache and strep throat go away soon.