*sigh*

[kingmike1224]

Dear God:

If you are able to read this, can you please tell me why you cursed the world with this thing 'love'? is it so that you can have people make a fool of me, or is it that you just want me to feel this and torture me beyond belief? A line from a movie i like says "love doesn't make the world go round, but it makes the ride worth while" well apparently my world should just crumble and die at my feet, because love will probably never find me. If you wanted to torture me, i admit defeat. if this is a way to show everyone in the world that their life has an upside, please show me where mine is, because i sure as hell was never seeing a 'bright side' to anything in my life.

Tom

I dont wanna be here anymore, i just can't take anything else bad going on in my life and all that ever happens is nothing but bad things. my family, the one place that is supposed to be there when i need them, are worthless to run to because they are self involved. my friends, ya theres a joke, of the people that actually dont get bored of me and toss me away i thank you for putting up with me, i dont even think i'd be here now. and love, LOVE?!, ya i'll probably see that the day that i die, and probably be tortured before anything actually happens anyway.

im gonna go curl up in a ball and wait to die

Comments

[hwkeye82.livejournal.com]

i dont know what to say. your family, you cant change that. they will obviously be the same no matter what. your friends, keep them and charish them as long as you can! friends are what make people work. at least you have some, keep that in mind =) and the love life, dont worry about that so much, get out there, talk to people, put your name out there, get invovled. MEET PEOPLE! thats the only way that you will find someone, they usually dont come to you.

i love you tom, youre a great friend, we have had many wonderful interactions, and i wouldnt trade you for anything.

[3ebmadrigal.livejournal.com]

Tom,
I know sometimes the world can be a lonely and seemingly unfair place, I've had my share of both of these feelings... some of which I am still feeling. But when things get you down, such as being alone without a partner you have to remember you have friends that love you, and your family, no matter how self-involved they may appear, if you left this world a part of them would be lost as well. Not everyone is blessed with the kindness that you possess and the ability to share it with others.

You will find love. You want to know why? Because I have faith in you, and faith in the person that you are. You are a kind, caring, intelligent and wonderful human being and because of that you will never be alone, you will always have friends and family that love and need you. Then one day, probably when you least expect it or when you think all hope is lost another will see those things in you and and love you for them.

Please Tom, believe me when I say these things, for they are nothing but the truth.
♥ Always,
Heather

[ebullient-k.livejournal.com]

im sorry you don't feel good. I wish i could help. All I can say is hang in there. *hugs*

[feenie.livejournal.com]

Dearest,

Just try to hang in there for a bit more. School is almost out, then you get a job & look for a place to move. And in the mean time, you have me to bitch to...and I mean that.

Ok?

AND we have our concert!!!!!!!!

Love you much!!!
feenie

[mattymattymatty.livejournal.com]

I don't really know what to say, but I'll always be here for you if you want to talk about it, or not talk about it, or whatever. *huggles*

[diggybear.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Tom, I don't know what to tell you. All I can offer you is a great big hug. Only that not too long ago, I was feeling the same way and I was so sad over things that I cried.

I hope you know that your friends love you and that we are here for you no matter what. And I know I haven't been around much lately, but you can call me or e-mail me at work if you need to chat at any time.

I know things look bleak at times. But things will get better. It's hard to see and we go through our ups and downs, but they will get better. And remember, if anything, just call me anytime, I don't care at all. :)

Just keep your chin up and don't let everything get you too down. Once you're done with school, you'll get a job and move out and you won't have to worry about your family anymore.

Don't give up faith! :)

*hugs*

[sparklediamant.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry sweetie.

My internet connection has been down since I last talked to you, so I haven't been able to talk to you. Miss you! *loves*